Last night I dreamt that I was searching for the See’s Candy Store. When I found it, the store was a run-down shack in a dirty alley. 
There were no signs to announce it or attendees dressed with an apron and a smile. No, the “dealer” was dressed in rags, smelled horribly and had no teeth. She proceeded to weigh my chocolate on a filthy scale while chain smoking. All this before I snuck back into my car and sped away with the goods….I have some serious pent-up issues with food. 😛
In January 2012, after weeks of research, I made a bold decision. I decided to GO PALEO! I took my half-willing family along for this new adventure. It was great. I lost weight, I reclaimed energy and I thought I finally had my answer. Then the summer came, and along with it, rehearsals for Music Man. Days became shorter, cooking seemed less of an option and candy….well hello candy. From May to July I quit thinking about what I was eating and promptly fell off the Paleo/Primal wagon; and apparently right on to the weight I had lost with a few of its friends. 🙁
I spent the next few months yo-yoing back and forth between clean eating and easy/fast food. I gained a little more weight. Then in October I joined the cast of Father of the Bride and found another excuse to not prepare meals and eat like crap. All the while knowing and preaching the things I believed about food, GMOs and Paleo to others and on Facebook. Not easy to take food advice from a woman with 100 lbs to lose. (((((Some old friends who followed this link from Facebook just gasped. I know how-to angle a selfie…))))) THEN…..in December my right knee decided to hold it’s own protest. I ended up having surgery to clean up the meniscus and repair the ALC. I’m still not 100% but that is a thought for another day…
This entire year has been me bouncing between what I know to be good for me and what is easy and convenient…
So last night I ordered Super Nachos from Filibertos. Even as I opened up the styrofoam container I knew this was a mistake. I didn’t finish it, but I did eat it with corn chips and beans among the goop. By bedtime I was sick and my stomach still hurts.
So you may ask, I know I am, why will all my knowledge and conviction am I still struggling? That is the answer I’m searching for…
But today, T O D A Y, I am re-committing myself to the things I really believe in about food. REAL, GRASS-FED, FREE-RANGE, ORGANIC, NO BEANS/GRAINS/SUGAR. I’m not doing it to look like a super-model (I’m 41 and I am a realist), though I would like to lose enough weight to re-gain my health and stamina. I am doing this for longevity. To live a life that is about LIFE and not the next meal. Where foods have separate and wonderful flavors…not a carb-loaded blend of bland poo-poo. To be an example to the people I love!!!!
SOMEBODY PLAY THE ROCKY THEME NOW!
Interested in Primal or Paleo eating? Here are some links for great information, recipes, etc.
Movie: Fat Head (watch free on Amazon Prime and some portions on youtube)
Books: Wheat Belly, Primal Blueprint, Everyday Paleo, Practical Paleo…check Amazon.com
Facebook: Everyday Paleo, Against All Grain, Grass Fed Girl
